Taking The First Leap
When we got married July 13, 2013 we were ready to start a family as soon as we could. I still remember my sister ending her speech at our wedding, “I hope you have lots of babies”. We couldn’t wait to start having little Kaiser babies of our own. One year passed, we didn’t think too much into it. Maybe it just wasn’t the right time yet. Year two came and we were tracking cycles with multiple apps, ovulation tests, tracking my temperature. What is going on? Why are we still not getting pregnant?
I finally made the phone call to my primary care physician and scheduled an appointment for September 1, 2015 for a wellness check. I met with my doctor and told her my concerns. We did a pap and blood work to check my hormone levels, and checked my thyroid. Everything came back with in normal levels. Hooray! On the 17th I went and had a transvaginal ultrasound done of my ovaries and uterus. My results came back clear with no cysts or anything of concern. Another Hooray moment. BUT what’s wrong then? My primary care physician put in a referral for Kory and I to meet with Dr. Bell an OBGYN to hopefully get more answers.
In the meantime, Kory made an appointment with a new primary care doctor for himself. He mentioned his concerns before even going. They wanted him to have a semen sample tested before he even met with the doctor. He was terrified. As a man, you don’t want anything to be wrong with your sperm. You don’t want to be the reason that you can’t have children. Kory met with his doctor on September 20th to get his results. I still remember the phone call Kory made to me after his appointment. Korys sperm analysis came back that he had low morphology and low motility. What in the world does that even mean? Kory has sperm, but some of his sperm has a different shape to them and some of them swim slower then others. He explained it that some of the sperm might have 2 heads or even 2 tails. My eyes filled with tears as Kory said, “My doctor thinks we will never be able to have children on our own, that we will have to do IVF if we ever want to have kids.”. Something that you never expect to hear. Now what do we do?
Sometimes taking the first step of getting help is the hardest step. Kory and I were both scared, but knew if we wanted to start a family we might need a little help. Whether you are just starting your journey of having kids, or you are years into your journey, infertility is hard. It might be a simple fix, or it might lead you in the right direction of the next steps you need to take. Its overwhelming and the unknown is the hardest part. We will never understand why we have to struggle and can’t just get pregnant. Maybe that okay. Someday it might all make sense. Take that leap and know that you are NOT alone. If you ever need somebody to talk to, we are here for you always. We trust that God has a plan. We pray for all of you who are struggling. We pray that God answers your prayers of starting a family and having your dreams come true.
All Our Love,
Kory and Haylee
